Monday, March 3, 2008
any suggestions?
thanks!
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Did This Woman Just Steal From Me?
Ms. Dewey appears to be an interactive search assistant who audibly comments on searched keywords. Definatly not a better webpage than google, but a fun try, so i had a go. Immediatly this bitch takes out her pad and starts making the "i know why your searching for this" look and writing shit down in it. so i decided to take her for a trip through my head, not looking at the pages i searched, but only paying attention to the responses she gave; of course there are easter egg responses to the most obvious searches, like "boobs" but lets be honest boobs wasnt the worst thing i searched for; but i swear it felt like she was looking through my mac pro cam and data mining me for smart business and governmental intelligence...i did some further investigating and found Microsoft started Ms. Dewey, i hate you Ms. Dewey. actually im down it just feels wierd when they try to make that act of "the user in his underwear on the couch surfing the web" a personal human experiance, ill stick with google and its classic bar for now. Ms Dewey is def worth a go however
Hive-Mind Megacomputer
A hundred years ago, companies stopped generating their own power with steam engines and dynamos and plugged into the newly built electric grid. The cheap power pumped out by electric utilities didn’t just change how businesses operate. It set off a chain reaction of economic and social transformations that brought the modern world into existence. Today, a similar revolution is under way. Hooked up to the Internet’s global computing grid, massive information-processing plants have begun pumping data and software code into our homes and businesses. This time, it’s computing that’s turning into a utility.
Check Out:The Big Switch: Rewiring the World, from Edison to Google. by, Nicholas Carr
Some Don't Want A Worldwide Computer
its disconcerting to read military planners calmly laying out a doomsday scenario in which American forces act to 'disrupt or destroy the full spectrum of globally emerging communications systems; ' all systems sensors and weapons dependent on an electromagnetic spectrum.
http://www.gwu.edu/~nsarchiv/NSAEBB/NSAEBB177/index.htm
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Ryclying ideas to steer Space Ship Earth

Is is possible to live off the grid in modern civilization? Imagine a home that is powered by renewable energy, collects its own water, grows its own food, and is made from 100% recycled materials. The architect Mike Reynolds has proved thats is more than imaginable. HE calls his idea and his company Earthship Biotecture. An Earthship is a truly sustainable home designed to collect its own energy, food, and water, and defuse all its waste on site.
Yeah, Cool but can you cook with it? YES
And earth ship will even harvest methane from your waste and turn it into energy. Check out more food for thought on the Earthship site. http://www.earthship.net/
PLUS they have a solar powered toilet!
Sky
Spaceweather.com is a cool place to be....Jeff Hapemen took this on an overnight flight to London from LA
This dude has some sick pictures too
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Tsunami
This is a fantastic photo!! Amazing that the film was still good - or memory stick. Either one, this really tells the story. Look at how high that wall of water is!!!!!!
½ a second before tsunami
This picture was taken on the banks of Sumatra Island (the height of waves was of approx. 32 m = 105 ft).
It was found saved in a digital camera, 1 ½ years after the disaster.
We cannot know for sure, but very likely the one who took the picture is not alive any more (it was just a matter of seconds).
Today we can see the last image he/ she saw before ending life on Earth!
__._,_.___
i adore allen ginsberg
The weight of the world
is love.
Under the burden
of solitude,
under the burden
of dissatisfaction
the weight,
the weight we carry
is love.
Who can deny?
In dreams
it touches
the body,
in thought
constructs
a miracle,
in imagination
anguishes
till born
in human--
looks out of the heart
burning with purity--
for the burden of life
is love,
but we carry the weight
wearily,
and so must rest
in the arms of love
at last,
must rest in the arms
of love.
No rest
without love,
no sleep
without dreams
of love--
be mad or chill
obsessed with angels
or machines,
the final wish
is love
--cannot be bitter,
cannot deny,
cannot withhold
if denied:
the weight is too heavy
--must give
for no return
as thought
is given
in solitude
in all the excellence
of its excess.
The warm bodies
shine together
in the darkness,
the hand moves
to the center
of the flesh,
the skin trembles
in happiness
and the soul comes
joyful to the eye--
yes, yes,
that's what
I wanted,
I always wanted,
I always wanted,
to return
to the body
where I was born.
Lateralus
And open wide to suck it in, I feel it move across my skin
I'm reachin' up and reachin' out, I'm reachin' for the random or
Whatever will bewilder me, whatever will bewilder me
And following our will and wind, we may just go where no one's been
We'll ride the spiral to the end and may just go where no one's been
This is sort of in response to what has been discussed in dozemay's post below. this to me is whats really really really really really really important.each of us when we open up to whatever you want to call it is being pushed toward good.certain activities certainly catalyze this experience.never doubt your creative intution.its working toward good.its all working toward good
Over thinking, over analyzing, separate the body from the mind
Withering my intuition, leaving opportunities behind
My biggest struggle these days is denying my intuition because of a system of thought...an operating system you could say...we have the tools to tap into the internet (metaphorically)...they're everywhere...screaming at us
Feed my will to feel this moment
Urging me to cross the line
Reaching out to embrace the random
Reaching out to embrace whatever may come
SHRED INTO INDRAS NET...SHRED
taka's got a new musical obsession :)
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
YouTube
Wizards in Winter Link
Make this your homepage :)
Just a little bit every day will hopefully go a long way..... this has been my homepage for 2+ years now, so i figure i've clicked on it everyday i'm online (lets say 300 days a year) then....
i've helped protect 6840 sq. ft. of rainforest! yay!! i wonder how many frogs i've saved?
So, help me save the rainforest guys.... 11.4 sq ft at a time :)
How to Save the Rainforests
What the fuck do we do?
max and i went to see the Loose Change Final Cut at the Oriental last night. first of all, the movie fucking sucked. it was a conglomeration of the evidence pointing towards the likelihood of 911 being an inside job, yet they decided to not take a stand on the issue. they presented the info and fizzled out with a weak and almost apathetic conclusion. while a point can be made for the importance of people making their own inferences, if people are going to travel around the country in order to show these paradigm shattering pieces of information, than they better fucking take a stance and use their media disseminating power to create a community of people who want change. after the movie there was no call to action, no attempt to bring people together...instead a "thanks for coming, buy a beer to support the venue."
i watched Zeitgeist for the second time when i got home because i was searching for a more solid view of the situation at hand and i needed the zeitgeist rhetoric to get under my skin again. that movie is the shit. while it is extreme and unnerving, it takes no prisoners. it is a holistic presentation, it is a call to action, a call to connect, a call to open our collective eyes. the quotes at the end of the movie are amazing, enlightening, positive and serve to bring people together. Ram Dass' quote about the lack of an 'other' is exactly what we need to be hearing: we are in this together and we are inexplicably tied to each other and to nature. Bill Hicks' quote about the dream like nature of life/reality is liberating and brings the end of the movie to a point where an answer begins to become somewhat visible: dream a better reality.
the government perpetrated 9/11 against its citizens in order to further its political agenda of greed and power. the government perpetrated 9/11 against its citizens in order to further its political agenda of greed and power. holy shit. this is huge, this is bigger than anything i've read in a history book. we are living during the craziest explosion of life, information and oppression that i can imagine. what matters? what is going to school, traveling, going to shows, smoking pot, playing? what is our life compromised of when we are embedded in the most elaborate life-strangling lie ever created?
WHAT THE FUCK DO WE DO? WE HAVE TO STAND UP. HOW CAN WE OVERCOME THIS EVIL? HOW DO WE ACCELERATE THE DREAM OF A BETTER EXISTENCE?
I whole-heartedly encourage all of you who haven't seen Zeitgeist to watch it immediately.
This is an amazing article that serves as a necessary grain of salt to accompany the move.
I have no idea how we can overcome this. Positivity is awesome but I need something to sink my teeth into. I need a way to focus my intellect to make a real change. Fuck the slow cycles of oppression. What do we do? Suggestions?
I know we can do this. I'm done participating in the murdering liberty stripping paradigm that is everywhere. It's time to get angry and make a real change in our lives and the lives of others.
I honor the place in you in which the entire Universe dwells. I honor the place in you which is of Love, of Integrity, of Wisdom and of Peace. When you are in that place in you, and I am in that place in me, we are One.
Namaste
Thats a lot of Euros
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Microsoft must now pay a record 899m euros ($1.4bn; £680.9m) after it failed to comply with a 2004 ruling that it abused its position.
The ruling said that Microsoft was guilty of not providing key code to rival software makers.
EU regulators said the firm was the first to break an EU anti-trust ruling.
The fines come on top of earlier fines of 280m euros imposed in July 2006, and of 497m euros in March 2004.
"Microsoft was the first company in 50 years of EU competition policy that the Commission has had to fine for failure to comply with an antitrust decision," Competition Commissioner Neelie Kroes said in a statement.
Future improvements?
An investigation concluded in 2004 that Microsoft was guilty of freezing out rivals in products such as media players, while unfairly linking its Explorer internet browser to its Windows operating system at the expense of rival servers.
The European Court of First Instance upheld this ruling last year, which ordered Microsoft to pay 497m euros for abusing its dominant market position.
Last week, the firm announced that it would open up the technology of some of its leading software, including Windows, to make it easier to operate with rivals' products.
"As we demonstrated last week with our new interoperability principles and specific actions to increase the openness of our products, we are focusing on steps that will improve things for the future," Microsoft said.
Further cases
But the firm is still being pursued by Brussels.
Last month, the European Commission launched two new anti-competition investigations against Microsoft into similar issues.
The first will look at whether there are still problems regarding Microsoft abusing its dominance of the PC market to grab market share of the internet.
The Commission will also investigate the continued interoperability of Microsoft software with rival products.
mmmmmmmmmmmm.........DROP!

Reminder 4 Rothbury
Hey kids,
don't forget Rothbury tix go on sale today at 12pm EST (10am MST).... and i encourage everyone getting a ticket to buy the green ticket- its only $3 or $7 (you choose) extra, and what's a couple dollars when you're already paying $250? .... It's a couple of trees and support to help in the building of new wind energy facilities.... so lets all practice what we preach eh?
hope everyones got flow 2 go :) cuz this shit will be soooo HOT!!
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
have we lost our connection?
heart centered
I'll meet you there."
Those who don't feel this Love
pulling them like a river,
those who don't drink dawn
like a cup of spring water
or take in sunset like supper,
those who don't want to change,
let them sleep.
This Love is beyond the study of theology,
that old trickery and hypocrisy.
I you want to improve your mind that way,
sleep on.
I've given up on my brain.
I've torn the cloth to shreds
and thrown it away.
If you're not completely naked,
wrap your beautiful robe of words
around you,
and sleep.
-Rumi
Monday, February 25, 2008
Be the Tree
When the winds
blow
From where we know not
where
Do not be afraid to give way
***
When the rain and
snow
fall and the sun singes your
hair
You don't have to say what you want to say
(FUCK!)
***
When cosmic influence
tells you to fall
to take out a car
or a
powerline
Do not delay
But understand
that if something should take you
and your roots
out of the ground and into the world
Its importance is insurmountable
incalcuable
entirely dramatical
Essential to this cosmic play
***
Be the Tree
and
Let your design guide your Way
Brown Ends Tuition for Lower-Income Students
Undisclosed detention centers
Since 9/11, and seemingly without the notice of most Americans, the federal government has assumed the authority to institute martial law, arrest a wide swath of dissidents (citizen and noncitizen alike), and detain people without legal or constitutional recourse in the event of "an emergency influx of immigrants in the U.S., or to support the rapid development of new programs."
Beginning in 1999, the government has entered into a series of single-bid contracts with Halliburton subsidiary Kellogg, Brown and Root (KBR) to build detention camps at undisclosed locations within the United States. The government has also contracted with several companies to build thousands of railcars, some reportedly equipped with shackles, ostensibly to transport detainees.
What does this mean in a serious state of emergency, perhaps having to do w/ resources? Nationwide Katrina for the country of Mexico...No Water...No Food...No ability to fight back
Saratoga Springs, NY 11:05 am
Using Nuclear Power to Get Gas
Bill Reinert, who helped design Toyota's Prius hybrid, hovers in a helicopter 1,000 feet over Fort McMurray, Alberta.
On this clear November morning, he's craning for a look at one of the world's largest petroleum reserves where there's not an oil well in sight.
Instead, in a two-mile-wide pit below, trucks head to refineries with loads of sand weighing more than Boeing 747s. Yellow flames shoot skyward as 900-degree heat liquefies any embedded petroleum.
Via Cryptogon:As bad as this seems, this is just a preview.
I could be wrong, but my guess is that asymmetric operations against the energy companies will begin if the insane decision is made to go with nuclear power to provide the heat necessary to recover the oil from these deposits.
There are a lot of people who are one notch away from throwing their bodies onto the gears of the machine. It’s only a fraction of fraction of one percent, but that’s all you need to cause billions of dollars worth of damage in an asymmetric battle space.
It’s tough to imagine a more insane use of technology than using nuclear power to eat the earth in order to keep spewing carbon into the air, but here we are.
High food prices
The United Nation’s agency responsible for relieving hunger is drawing up plans to ration food aid in response to the spiralling cost of agricultural commodities.
The World Food Programme is holding crisis talks to decide what aid to halt if new donations do not arrive in the short term....
Japan launches wireless satelite
$740 billion mortgages at moderate to high risk of failure - Bank of America
WASHINGTON — Over the last two decades, few industries have lobbied more ferociously or effectively than banks to get the government out of its business and to obtain freer rein for “financial innovation.
But as losses from bad mortgages and mortgage-backed securities climb past $200 billion, talk among banking executives for an epic government rescue plan is suddenly coming into fashion.
Mom's gonna put back the way it ought to be....
University who fired Ward Churchhill hires president with no credentials
Mom's gonna fix it all soon....
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Dear lord! rioters!! get the water cannons!!
So what did the students in this video do? They shut down the highway as they marched seven miles, chanting Obama, to cast their votes on the first day of early voting.
nader to run for president
while i dont agree with libertarian-esque policies all the time, due to their lack of support for the underprivileged and under-represented, nader is in my mind clearly a great independent thinker who tends to have the betterment of society a top his list. his battles with corporations and his progressive ideas are much needed. it would be great for america to have a debate with mccain, obama, ron paul and nader discussing the issues in a raw and real conversation. it would surely expose our populous to wider array ideas and show that our world is not separated into black and white (or more appropriately red and blue). we need to keep incorporating fresh and different ideas into our political realm, because clearly we have not found any real answers yet...
nader could really push the democratic candidates to firm up some policy issues and try to gain more support form the progressive crowd that he will find support in.
i hope his choice works out for the best.
this link is a transcript from a DemocracyNOW! interview with nader from a few months ago before he officially entered the race. he makes some great points...
Talking Heads
Pretty sick stuff
Talking Heads Various Dates Stop Making Sense Tour Westwood One PreFM @ 320 MP3
Thank You For Sending Me An Angel
Burning Down The House
Making Flippy Floppy
Once In A Lifetime
Found A Job
Slippery People
What A Day That Was
This Must Be The Place
Life During Wartime
Big Business / I Zimbra
Swamp
Psycho Killer
Crosseyed and Painless
Take Me To The River
http://link-protector.com/375022/
http://link-protector.com/375023/
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Talking Heads 1979 Sydney State Theatre @ 320
Whiny Announcer
The Book I Read
Paper
Mind
Found A Job
Memories Can't Wait
Psycho Killer
Take Me To The River
http://link-protector.com/367773/
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Talking Heads 04/04/82 Rock Werchter @ 320
Psycho Killer
Once in a Lifetime
Mind
My Big Hands
Cities
Houses in Motion
Life during Wartime
Take me to the River
http://link-protector.com/350412/
http://link-protector.com/350413/
________________
Talking Heads 01/25/84 Milwaukee, WI @ 320
01 Thank You For Sending Me An Angel
02 Burning Down The House
03 Making Flippy Floppy
04 Once In A Lifetime
05 Found A Job
06 Slippery People
07 What A Day That Was
08 Naive Melody
09 Life During Wartime
10 Big Business
11 Swamp
12 Psycho Killer
13 Crosseyed And Painless
http://link-protector.com/313287/
http://link-protector.com/313288/
________________
Talking Heads 1978-09-16 San Francisco CA SBD @ 320
Another most excellent soundboard from the Heads.
The Big Country
Warning Sign
The Book I Read
Stay Hungry
Artists Only
The Girls Want To Be With The Girls
The Good Thing
Building On Fire
Electricity
Found A Job
New Feeling
Pulled Up
Psycho Killer
Take Me To The River
I'm Not In Love
No Compassion
http://link-protector.com/312348/
http://link-protector.com/312349/
________________
Talking Heads 1977-12-03 San Francisco CA SBD @ 320
Crystal clear soundboard. Hot performance.
Uh-Oh Love Comes To Town
With Our Love
The Book I Read
Artists Only
Stay Hungry
The Big Country
New Feeling
Thank You For Sending Me An Angel
Who Is It
Psycho Killer
No Compassion
1,2,3 Red Light
http://link-protector.com/312344/
http://link-protector.com/312346/
________________
Talking Heads 1980 December Rome with Adrian Belew @ 320
01 Intro
02 Psycho Killer
03 Stay Hungry
04 Cities
05 I Zimbra
06 Drugs
07 Take Me To The River
08 Crosseyed And Painless
09 Life During Wartime
10 Houses In Motion
11 Born Under Punches
12 The Great Curve
http://rapidshare.com/files/40496639/TalkingHeads1980_December_Romep1. rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/40498064/TalkingHeads1980_December_Romep2. rar
________________
Talking Heads The Warner Bros Music Show March 1979 @ 320
01The Big Country
02 Warning Sign
03 ArtistsOnly
04 The Girls Just Want To Be With The Girls
05 The Good Thing
06 Electricity
07 New Feeling
08 Found a Job
09 Psycho Killer
10 Take Me to the River
http://rapidshare.com/files/36451270/TalkingHeadsMarch_1979p1.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/36451867/TalkingHeadsMarch_1979p2.rar
________________
Talking Heads 09/29/79 Stardust Room Las Vegas @ 320
Intro
Artists Only
Stay Hungry
Cities
Paper
Mind
Heaven
Electric Guitar
Air
New Feeling
Building On Fire
Found A job
Psycho Killer
Life During Wartime
Take Me To The River
http://rapidshare.com/files/36448020/TalkingHeads09_29_79p1.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/36448753/TalkingHeads09_29_79p2.rar
________________
Talking Heads 08-03-83 Saratoga Performing Arts Center @ 320
RAR files have 93 as the date. Correct is 83. Change at your leisure.
01 Psycho Killer
02 Heaven
03 Buildings On Fire
04 Book I Read
05 Slippery People
06 Cities
07 Eyes Wide Open
08 Burning Down The house
09 Life During Wartime
10 Making Flippy Floppy
11 Swamp
12 What A Day It Was
13 Home
14 Once In a Lifetime
15 Big Business - I Zimbra
16 Houses In Motion
17 Fun Natural Fun
18 Girlfriend Is Better
19 Take Me To The River
20 Crosseyed And Painless
http://rapidshare.com/files/36444189/TalkingHeads08-03-93p1.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/36445273/TalkingHeads08-03-93p2.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/36446239/TalkingHeads08-03-93p3.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/36446765/TalkingHeads08-03-93p4.rar
________________
Talking Heads Heat Wave Festival August 23, 1980 @ 320
01 Psycho Killer
02 Warning Sign
03 Stay Hungry
04 Cities
05 I Zimbra
06 Once In A Lifetime
07 Houses In Motion
08 Born Under Punches
09 Crosseyed And Painless
10 Life During Wartime
11 Take Me To THe River
12 Take Me To The River Cont.
http://rapidshare.com/files/36441940/THHeat_Wave_Festival_August_23__1 980p1.rar
http://rapidshare.com/files/36442854/THHeat_Wave_Festival_August_23__1 980p2.rar
Saturday, February 23, 2008
for all these reasons spontaneous sex in space could be a little overwhelming

The National Aeronautics and Space Administration is disputing a French science writer's claim that American astronauts conducted sex experiments while orbiting the earth in the space shuttle in 1996.
...but, um, they had to explore the potential for sweat and other bodily fluids to, um, get in the way. Right guys?
Relation Follow Up
Scientific American
There are neural pathways associated with 'otherness' and with 'oneness.' Let's strengthen the neural net of love, or the ventral mPFC...
Namaste
Friday, February 22, 2008
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Rockin the minivan
Drugi Obieg
drugi obieg were passed among friends. The techniques to reproduce the forbidden literature and periodicals varied from making several copies of the content using carbon paper, either by hand or on a typewriter, to printing the books on semi-professional printing presses in larger quantities.
Lets start our own Underground Press Syndicate (UPS) of 1971
Stealing Is Wrong....

Abbie Hoffman's counterculture classic Steal This Book was a practical guide for the aspiring hippie of the late 20th century. And while much of its advice on hitchhiking, living in communes, growing marijuana, starting a pirate radio station, shoplifting and making pipe bombs is somewhat dated, it serves as an inspirational look into a way of life and a brand of philosophy that is still quite valid.
If you haven't had a chance to read it yet, now is a better time than any.
Revolutionizing Money
Glacier in the middle of a rain forest
First President to Smile
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
heady light show
new LED light bulbs are pricey but could last up to 35 years at four hours a day. They are totally recyclable and take up way less energy than traditionals or CFLs.
neato
Pangea Day
A Product of the TED Talks, Pangea Day aims to unite the world through the power of film.
Carbonated End of Time New Monsoon
Soundboards of some nice looking sauce from SF featuring some of your favorites
Set 1
Disc 1
1. Intro
2. Seven Rivers >
3. Slippery People >
4. Southern Dew (1)
5. Velvet Pouch (1)
6. Mountain Air (1)
7. The Other Side >
8. Song For Marie
9. I Am The Walrus *(1)
Set 2
Disc 2
1. Tuning
2. Hannbone Jam (1,2,3,4,5)
3. Dark Star **(1,2,3)
4. Daddy Long Legs (1)
5. Alaska (1)
6. Modus Operandi >
7. Don't Let It Bring You Down
Disc 3
1. Lotus Dream (1,4)
Encores:
2. While My Guitar Gently Weeps (6)
3. Bridge of the Gods (1)
1 with Tim Carbone (Railroad Earth), fiddle
2 with Jason Hann (EOTO), percussion
3 with Michael Travis (EOTO), percussion
4 with Rajiv Parikh, tablas
5 with Michael Kang, electric mandolin
6 with Mark Karan (RatDog), electric guitar
* first time played, Beatles cover
**first time played, Crosby, Stills, and Nash cover
Tudd Larry showed this to me
Where is the Water?
Thats it, it's apparent, the most precious element on this earth
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
brain controlled headset
BBC: game it up
"It allows the user to manipulate a game or virtual environment naturally and intuitively,"
"Gamers are able to move objects in the world just by thinking of the action."
wikileaks
still access the site via IP address:
http://88.80.13.160/wiki/Wikileaks
F' em
there is also a list of tons of public domains that hope to make it impossible to shut down the site
scroll a down few posts on this current article
The Dominator Inheritance
tmk
OPEN THE FLOORS FOR DEBATE IF YOU FEEL
A Meditation On Relation
What does it mean that I can’t understand how many of my fellow humans perceive their reality? Why do I get upset at the actions and attitudes of my peers? What does it mean that people view one another as idiots for their failure to undertake situations in similar ways? What does it mean that I passionately disagree with the way that some people choose to exist? I believe that all things are deeply interconnected in a way that pushes our current conceptualizing abilities--that all people are telepathically sharing their experiences on a deep subconscious level and through this relationship, are actively co-creating their realities together. With this belief where relation is so paramount, it is dumbfounding to me to be so out of agreement with what seems like the majority of people around me. Glimpses of Wal Mart and McDonalds and Marlboro only amplify this feeling of estrangement. The questions raised within me by the sight of the bumper sticker made me realize that I am far from being at peace with my relationship with other humans and this lack of harmony with my fellow beings is without a doubt influencing the creation of the reality we share together.
Through my spiritual journey and self-education I have come to view much of the current paradigm of human existence to be disgusting, evil and unhealthy for all things sentient and not. I have no desire to list events, laws, people or ideals that brought me to this conclusion but I know within myself, that in the big picture, humans have been and continue to write pages of history that are filled with hate, contempt, bigotry and ugliness. However, I am in no way interested in downplaying the presence of positivity in the world. Throughout my life, the inner drive to understand myself, other people and our shared condition called life has led me to amazing things, people and ideas. I am grateful beyond words for the beautiful things my consciousness has come into contact with and I am unsure how I would make it through some days without this base of enlightened knowledge that has been so graciously shared with me. Many thoughts both ancient and contemporary have deeply resonated with my soul, with the very essence of my existence. While many of these personal findings and spiritual seekings have stroked my being with warmth, love and understanding, my comprehension of them has further alienated me from the world in which I participate every day, a world that is stark in contrast to the things that resonate with me and make me feel at home in myself. I came to realize recently that this feeling of bittersweetness about my life in this world, the very same feeling I had when reading the bumper sticker in traffic weeks ago, is the root of my suffering on Earth. It seems the more positivity I invite into my existence the more I am severed from the majority.
Times when my optimism takes a hold of me are liberating and eye-opening. Being able to enjoy the beauty amongst all the evil is no doubt keeping me aligned and motivated to keep seeking but I can’t help but feel as though I am cheating myself by accepting or tolerating so much bad. I don’t want the glimpses of good to keep me appeased in the charade that is life on Earth in 2008. When I share time with other driven souls or when I am in my own space reading, writing and stumbling upon, I feel okay about my situation and secure in my journey to find my own truth. On the other hand, when I am out and about participating in the world I sometimes feel as though I am just another opiated body in the masses, accepting what is force-fed to me. I pay Xcel Energy, Comcast, Conoco and the like on a regular basis. I sit in traffic. While I try focus much of my attention on positive and enlightening subjects, as soon as I take one step into the world of capitalist consumption I am washed over by feelings of hopelessness. Sometimes I feel that my only hope is to detach from civilization, to get off the grid and live simply in harmony with nature. While this is an attractive daydream, I realize that it is only that. Living off the grid might bring me brief peace and happiness but it doesn’t bring me any closer to human beings that I am permanently bound to. Hence, it will not end my suffering.
While mindfully participating in the system and attempting to infuse some love into it can be painful and hard it doesn’t compare to the feeling of confusion I get when trying to relate to other people not as mindful in their participation. I can in no way understand the viewpoint of ‘things aren’t that bad.’ It is impossible for me to see eye-to-eye with people that have no problem with the countless unhealthy and counterproductive ruts civilization has found itself engrained in. Watching the placated multitudes as they trudge through life mindlessly searching for an impossible happiness defined by an oligarchy of evil gives rise to feelings beyond pain. And one of the reasons why it hurts me so much is because I can see a piece of myself locked into the charade. How can I not be attached to a way of life that I was subconsciously taught to believe in for my entire life? How can I, as a social ape innately interested in the opinion of others, not care about the way that my peers are choosing to live?
I feel that through my seeking and journeying thus far, I have effectively stripped some of the veils of illusion away from my eyes. This perception through the opaque lies of 23 years embedded in a force-fed reality definitely gives rise to feelings of alienation and confusion. What makes these feelings worse when they do arise is that when I look to those around me, I seldom see people enforcing and embodying what I know to be true. I see close friends and relatives, good people, either blinded by the charade or so apathetic that they effectively hand the very veil used to blind them to the very force doing the deceiving. Witnessing people’s ignorance and apathy towards things that get me so fired up and driven on a daily basis makes me feel lonely and uncertain of humanity’s ability to evolve out of the blinding paradigm that begs to define our lives. Why don’t people care enough to turn off the TV and turn on their cognition? Why don’t people have the drive to try to understand the mysteries of life on earth? Why don’t people put down their guns and pick up a guitar or a paintbrush? These are questions that mean the world to me.
My hope is that by living in a way that is true to my being I will be able to inspire others to infuse tenacity into their personal journey. I’m sick of the slow cycles of change and I will do my best to detach from those practices, businesses and ideals that I know are counterproductive to a harmonious life. I will honor the undercurrent of oneness that I know exists by acting selflessly and compassionately. I invite a new method of relating to my fellow humans into my life. Instead of echoing the sentiment of ‘don’t let idiots ruin your day’ I will try my best to ‘understand and relate to the idiot.’ I will share my ideas and beliefs in a deferential way and stay open to the ideas and beliefs of others. Coming together is the only way we will come to peace. As ONE.
Be The Fish
The mountain stream of life
Courses with opportunity
A drifting leaf skims the surface
While a river rock commands the depths
The mighty fish knows both the ripples and the stones
And in living
Turns opportunities into realities.
“An unexamined life is not worth living.” –Socrates
Why should I wish to see God better than this day?
I see something of God in each hour of the twenty-four, an
each moment then,
In the faces of men and women I see God, and in my own
face in the glass;
I find letters from God dropped in the street, and every
one is signed by God’s name,
And I leave them where they are, for I know that others
will punctually come forever and ever.
I too am not a bit tamed….I too am untranslatable
I sound my barbaric yawp over the roofs of the world.
--From Leaves of Grass, Walt Whitman
Max...This One is For You
http://www.cnn.com/video/#/video/tech/2008/02/19/vo.aus.sea.spider.ap
Disturbed by the Wind
DISTURBED BY WIND - Stephen Buhner
| A two-thousand-year-old tree in an ecosystem filled with a tumultuous, complex, riot of interacting plant species feels markedly different than a lone sapling surrounded by grass, stark in the front yard of a new housing development, or the Norfolk pine leaning drunkenly in the corner of the kitchen. The green, orderly lawns surrounding children's homes do not bear any relationship to the up-and-down, uneven landscapes filled with giant, craggy outcroppings of the immeasurably ancient stones of Earth that wild landscapes often possess. A calm pond lends us serenity, yet when its waters are disturbed by wind are we not also disturbed? our emotions unsettled? Where is it that our feelings really come from? |
Monday, February 18, 2008
Whistle-blower site taken offline
"As well as removing all records of the site form its servers, the hosting and domain name firm was ordered to produce "all prior or previous administrative and account records and data for the wikileaks.org domain name and account".
The order also demanded that details of the site's registrant, contacts, payment records and "IP addresses and associated data used by any person...who accessed the account for the domain name" to be handed over."
so does that mean that the gov can just create databases with the people who frequent sites like these? wikileaks, youtube can help bring morality back to the business world. who shot that video of the cow and put it on youtube? was it a "whistle-blower" or someone proud of their undeniable dominance over a living creature. either way, people know about what happened at that particular meat plant, and they damn well better be outraged...
same same...but different
Sunday, February 17, 2008
You Are What You Eat
rBGH has been banned in Canada, EU, Australia and New Zealand. What about the US you ask....the profits gained by the torturous overproduction of meat and milk make it too good to pass up, even if there is direct evidence of adverse human health problems and immoral animal treatment. The cow shown at the end of the video can no longer stand up because rBGH makes the udder too heavy for the animal to support. If it makes dollars it makes sense.
From The Center For Food Safety:
"Because rBGH use results in more cases of mastitis, dairy farmers tend to use more antibiotics to combat the infections, the residues of which also may end up in milk and dairy products. These residues can cause allergic reactions in sensitive individuals and contribute to the growth of antibiotic resistant bacteria, further undermining the efficacy of some antibiotics in fighting human infections.
Furthermore, recent research has shown conclusively that the levels of a hormone called "insulin-like growth factor-1" (IFG-1) are elevated in dairy products produced from cows treated with rBGH. Canadian and European regulators have found that the FDA completely failed to consider a study that showed how the increased IGF-1 in rBGH milk could survive digestion and make its way into the intestines and blood stream of consumers. These findings are significant because numerous studies now demonstrate that IGF-1 is an important factor in the growth of cancers of the breast, prostate and colon."











